Friday, May 20, 2011
Ad Astra Per Aspera
Sunday, February 6, 2011
You call it dreams, when it's really life. We are living the dream.
This is going to be a long blog, I will admit that before I even start. But this blog is not going to be a rant or anything. This is coming from my heart and tears are already starting to swell as I begin to type this.
I am in disbelief of where I am today. I am so thankful to the numerous people that have brought me to this place. 2, even 3 years ago, I would have never been able to even DREAM about where I am today. 1 year ago I would have jokingly dreamed about, telling myself it was just wishful thinking. And it's killing me.
No, mind you I am very much alive. But every other day we live is just one step closer to death so in all technicalities living our lives, and completing our destinies really are killing us.. Ok enough of that weird crap. But seriously.
I have been blessed beyond my wildest dreams and I am silently standing back watching as my life and dreams unfold in front of me. It amazes me at how quickly I got where I am today. It amazes me all of the new friends I've made.
I used to remember thinking "God, I know what you want for me. I know you have these amazing plans for me. But I'm tired of waiting. I want what's next. I know what you have planned, I just don't know how or when or who is going to help me get there."
Everyday I am getting closer and closer and closer. I am seeing these amazing things unravel before my very own eyes so fast that I wish I could go back and play them in slow motion just to make sure it's real.
I have realized that the things I have been doing lately other people would kill for. I am doing things thousands of people would just be extremely jealous for. I have created friendships with people that some people fantasize about. I am in a position that God has placed me in because there is no possible way that I could have gotten to on my own.
My friends told me that when they first met me they thought I was making things up. They didn't believe me and they thought that I was full of crap. They believe me now. But it shocks them. My other friends tell me that they want my life. They say it makes them jealous.
When I look at myself. And I see who I am minus everything amazing that God has done in my life I wonder how those amazing things even happened. And I realize as life has gone on, those things have gotten even more and more and more amazing, and it makes me wonder how much better life is going to get. Where am I going to be a year from now?
When I look in the mirror and see the zits on my face. When I look at my house and see how small it is. When I think about where I live. When I think about all the things my family has sacrificed. When I think about all the mistakes I've made.When I think about my life I don't believe myself.
But I can't believe myself. I can't believe everything I've done. But I have to believe God. I have too.
It blows my mind. I dreamt about some of these things when I was 12. And they're coming true. It's beautiful to see what's become of these ashes. Some people call of these things hopes and wishes and dreams and fantasies. This world tells you to blow them off and just ignore them. But you can't ignore these things. You can't lose faith. You can doubt what God is going to do in your life. When you begin to doubt these dreams, you begin do doubt God's will. See when you believe these dreams and hold on to hope, they come true. You call them dreams but they will be given life. Dreams become reality. When you begin to doubt you're killing them. And by killing them you're losing every chance they have to become reality.
I consider myself so fortunate to have had these numerous opportunities. I thank God for them. I thank God for the people that have made them come true.
I don't know if this makes sense to you. I probably sound crazy. But honestly, have hope my friends. Your dreams are waiting for you. They're just around the corner.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Acoustic
Here's a list of some of my favorite songs currently:
Sunday, January 9, 2011
BOOM!
Friday, November 26, 2010
Happy Holidays!
Can't wait!
Anyways. I'm thankful for many things. I'm thankful that my heart is beating and my lungs are breathing. I'm thankful that I have experienced all of the things I have. I thank God for those oppurtunites so much, knowing they are just the beginning. I'm thankful for the second chances.
Now moving along. I LOVE CHRISTMAS MUSIC. Oh, yes, that is almost an understatement about how amazing it is. Go check out the Happy Christmas 5 from ToothandNail Records, and while you're there, be sure to get Once A Year by Poema. Lovvveeee it! Great great great great music!
Speaking of Poema, their music video 2 AM is on MTVu's Freshman thingy whatever, and you should really vote for them to win!
http://www.mtvu.com/category/music/the-freshmen/
Go vote a million times!
Oh by the way, Speaking of Christmas, Rocky Loves Emily's American Dream is now out in Hot Topic's Nationwide. $5 says it's a great stocking stuffer. The EP is a dream. If you don't feel like going to Hot Topic, it's also available on iTunes and Amazon.com.
I probably sound like neverending advertisement. I've been told that quite a few times by people. Hahaha. Music is my thing, sorry I don't have much else to tell you about!
Friday, November 12, 2010
I Still Can't Believe You're Gone
On November 7th 2010.
I'm going to miss him.
Getting over the fact that he is gone is easy.
Getting over the fact that we all are going to die.
Isn't so easy.
I'm not as scared of living life without my loved ones as I am of living no life at all.
Mr. Herr was a great man. He taught me great things. The most valuable lession that I learned from him though was this:
You never know when you're going to go out. No one is invincible. Live your life to the fullest and do what matters.
Mr. Herr always had a life lesson or value to everything he did. Even in his death he taught us all a lesson.
Thank you Mr. Herr. I'm going to miss you. You are our Phantom of the Opera.
"I'll remember you like yesterday. I still can't believe you're gone. I'll remember you like yesterday. And until I'm with you I'll carry on. So long my friend, so long." ~Jon Foreman
Sunday, November 7, 2010
.s.i.x.t.e.e.n.
right now i am so tired. and so bored. my parents are at a party thing for church so i am home alone doing homework. blah.
last night/this morning i went to a concert for my birthday of course. and it was off the hook. not literally like "omg amazing greatest show ever" because it wasn't. but when i say off the hook i mean the guys were totally nice and sooo sweet!
i accidentally ended up selling merch during their show. i don't care i only know 1 song. i found one of their eps in their money box so the lead singer was like "oh this is old take it" so i did. haha.
yeah.
that's all i've got to say.
i lied. it really isn't.
the band was totally chill and really nice. and yeah i know i said that. but i had to say it again. they were some of the sweetest people i've ever met, and i can't wait to see them again.
i think i'm done now. yeah i'm done now. (:
Sunday, October 31, 2010
All Hollow's Eve.
Anways, I feel like throwing it out there that I never got to go "trick or treating" or go to a "costume party" or any of that nonsense. Ok 1, I'm a Christian and if you look up the history of Halloween, it has some not-so-great stuff to it. 2, You want to dress up like an idiot, to take your kid around to get free candy & have nightmares for the next 3 months, and then complain about cavities be my guest. 3, I'm not dissing Halloween, I'm just saying it's not as kid-friendly as it looks.
Oh yes, my 16th birthday is in 1 week. I'm so excited. No big party for me. Just going to a little joint to see a not-so-famous band play a concert. RockyLovesEmily. Go check 'em out. Yesterday I got my first piercing too. I'm a total WIMP when it comes to pain, and it didn't even hurt. So freaking proud of myself. I'm also so embarrased because when I was sitting in that big black chair I was freaking out to the piercer. Haha. Yea.
I have to go get ready for a party now.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Seperate We Are One
I didn't know what to put.
1. I believe that Christianity is not a religion. It's an ongoing relationship with Jesus Christ. Loving your friends isn't your religion, it's a relationship between you.
2. I don't belong to a denomination. I believe in the word of God. There is no style, tradition, culture, or practiced rules that I follow other than what is in the Bible.
They provided no space that just said "Christian", they were all different denomination or sects. Why can't we just love God, why does it have to matter how we go to church? Why does it matter how we serve him? I was outraged by this.
We are all individuals, but though we are seperate, we are still one. So why does it matter?!
Since I don't belong to one set, I put "other." These rules and regulations are of this world, and not the other. I'm not of this world. I am an"other" person, an "other" type of Christian, I belong to an "other" world.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Split Second Stars
"When raindrops hit the ground for a split second they look like stars." - Rob Bell
Rob Bell wrote a book based off this quote. The book changed my views on life, creativity, & suffering. Every time I read the book, it makes me revaluate the beauty that comes from pain, the creativity that comes through suffering, relativity that comes through the commonality of loss, & the growth that comes through struggling.
When I say that this changed my life I really do mean it. People so often associate rain with sorrow, gloominess, darkness, bitterness, lamentations, mourning, & even death at times. This quote defies all of that & defines the appearence of rain in a new light. The quote says they glisten like stars. I have never found someone who would deny the beauty of a twinkling star in a black sky; so no longer is rain being associated with things that are ugly; it is being associate with things that are pretty. This has affected my outlook on pouring rain. Though at times it depresses me, I remind myself of glistening stars, & my mood changes.
Now that I try to think positively on rain, I realize so much more. Rain purifies. It washes away things from the ground that could be possibly harmful, like chemicals & pollution. If you watch rain fall on a dirty car, washes away the dirt. In movies like Braveheart, it washed away the blood stains. In this sense the rain rids things of the old & filthiness, to replace it with something new & clean.
Rain is a necessity for growth. Trees, flowers, grass, crops, & plants all require rain to grow. Not only is rain needed to grow, but it is needed to survive. I really got myself thinking this time. Rain is thought of as "sad & unpleasant," but honestly it is for the better good & growth of our planet. Maybe, just maybe, we need to be "sad & unpleasant" at times in our life, to grow, to change, to become a better person, & to come out standing at the end. Again, maybe we need to be "sad & unpleasant" to survive. Communication is a key to survival, & to be human. Being "sad & unpleasant" is something that everyone relates too. Everyone can relate to loneliness, sadness, sorrow, loss, & being uncomfortable. Maybe there is an allegorical rain that is necessary for us as a race, to thrive.
The theme of Rob's book, Drops Like Stars, is creativity & suffering. Every time I see rain now, or think about of rain, I automatically think of this book. One part of the book talks about shattering the box. You all know the box, it's the reference that most people use to account for being creative or not. Rob said you need to shatter the box. He says the truth when he says that thinking outside of the box is still thinking inside of the box, because your basing your potential to the limitations of the box. If you really want to be creative you have to shatter the box, & eliminate its walls & standards in your life. That quote itself hit me hard.
I shatter the box of stereotypical rain & opened myself up to a new paradigm of rain. I foud a way, reason, & purpose to change my opinions on things. Shadows prove the sun shines, and life is proof of rain.
The End.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Dreaming About Providence
Before I continue this I would like to thank Abandon, Abandon Kansas, Kiros, Hyland, The Almost, House of Heroes, Uprise Festival Staff, & whoever I'm forgetting.
Anyways last week my mind was blown away. Oh dear Lord, I don't know where to start! I guess I can't say much, but God has his own timing. Sometimes you'll be surprised about how soon it will actually, so keep faith, & don't give up on hope. I probably had one of the most defining moments in my life last Saturday, & I promimse I will never forget it. Once you see the crowd from the stage, you can never forget it. Watching thousands of people interact at one time. It's crazy. You've all seen the pictures, & think "Oh wow that looks cool." Once you've seen it in real life, it's not "just cool" anymore. I know last week was just one of the few baby steps, on my road of life, but if that was just a baby step, what is a real step going to be like?
Keep dreaming.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Random Update
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H08EXnT0Pz0
Anyways, enough about that. This summer I really wanted to attend Purple Door. Every band that was performing there that I wanted to see I had already seen this summer, or I would have the oppurtunity to see in 3 weeks from now at Uprise Festival, except one. And that one band I wanted to see really bad is like my favorite. Ok they are number 2 after Switchfoot, so this was a pretty big deal for me. I had 2 free tickets to go to Purple Door & no ride. I was pretty bummed. No that's a lie. I was extremely disappointed. Besides the point, Purple Door was 2 weeks ago, and in 2 weeks that same band will be playing a show 1 hour away from me! Yeah this probably sounds really dumb to you all, but this is a pretty big deal to me. Jesus is who I live for, but music is how I live. So that to me was quite a miracle.
So that's pretty much the update about me. How about you?
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Choose the Gladness. Join the Madness.
I gotta run, I have school tomorrow!
Monday, August 16, 2010
A Chance To Say Good-Bye
The harvest moon has come
And with her sadness brings
My mom says "It's too cold to play"
So I'm just waiting here
Thinking on our sunny days
But now there's Autumn in your eyes
I just wanted a chance to say good-bye
A final burst of Summer-time
I just wanted a chance to say good-bye
There's nothing quite as hard or easier than time
My world is coming down and no one seems to mind
Where I once played there's no sound
And all your pretty leaves have fallen to the ground
And now there's Autumn in your eyes
A sad fare-well to Summer-time
I just wanted a chance to say good-bye
From the North the icy breath is all around me
Blowing and snowing, changing you
Now there's Autumn in your eyes
I just wanted a chance to say good-bye
A long fare-well to Summer-time
I just wanted a chance to say good-bye"
~Children 18:3
Tomorrow is my last day of summer vacation. That was the song that came to mind & I deemed it worthy to post here. Sigh. Summer was great, but I'm ready for the next thing. So this is my way of giving an ode to Summer, and a way to say I'm moving on.
Go check out Children 18:3. They just released a new CD Rain's A' Comin' on June 28th. It's AMAZING!!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
SUBURBA

So today House of Heroes new CD Suburba officially came out! Yesterday it was on http://amazon.com for $2.99 with an exclusive bonus track. I bought it of course. The new CD is simply amazing! This CD's lyrics relate more with the common everyday person and the middle class. Your average commercial family, with a nice home, with a nice car, in a kid friendly suburban neighborhood. The last record, The End Is Not The End(to me) seemed to be a lot about war. Suburba's music is simply amazing and this band is definatly on top of their game.
Go buy it now! It's still $2.99 on amazon!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
{Hope}
Cliche? Maybe.
True? Yes.
Recently I've been agonizing myself with my own thoughts. Wondering about tomorrow. Wondering about tonight. I know that my time will come. And it will be beautiful. (Ecclesiastes 3:11) I just can't help but wonder "when". "When will my time be here?" It's a common question that I think everyone in life asks themselves at one point or another.
But finding the answer to that question, or finding the patience to wait until it is answered is hard. Finding the answer will be revealed alone when time itself unfolds. Finding the patience lies within you. I myself am not a very patient person; but I found something that helped me a lot. 1 Peter 5:6-7
In those verses there is hope. Not said outright, but inside. Those words are alive and living. They may not be the word "hope", but through them hope is generated.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Jokes & Juggling
1 - There are 3 types of people. I've classified them in this order
Person 1 - These people live like they are invincible. That it's ok to waste the days they've been given, but live like they've been given all the time in the world. This is because they can't handle the thought of death, or the end of life as we know it. They are honestly scared half to death by just the mention of the word. They act as if they'll live forever on this earth and that they can't die. They choose to ignore that reality.
Person 2 - These people know they will die one day. They don't care about much really because they think "Hey, who gives? We're all going to die one day, why even waste the time to help. Why bother?" These people just do whatever whenever knowing that one day in the end they are going to die and don't realize that what they do does effect society and the world we know. They choose to ignore the reality that life is worth living to it's fullest.
Person 3 - These people accept the fact that they will die someday. But they also realize that life is too good to waste. They truely and honestly try to live a healthy lifestyle and try to find a balance between both realities. They want to help and make a difference before time runs out. They realize the gift in life, and reality of death.
So basically that's what I've been thinking about lately.
~Ida
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
California
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Shatter the Box.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Buy 1 Give 1 Free
Crazy right?
Actually not really. For every pair of Toms Shoes you buy one pair will be given to a child in need. Such as victims of Haiti and other natural disasters.
This might sound like a total product placement but really it isn't! Toms Shoes are so comfy and cute. They say beauty is pain and in this case it's totally not! You'd spend 70$ on a pair of Nike's and for Toms you get high quality shoes for 44$ and are giving a pair of equal quality to someone who needs them. It sells itself!
I'm getting my second pair today! So go out and buy some Toms.
~Ida
http://tomsshoes.org